airboyisthelove

i came online just to whine on my journal,
talk about having an agenda. haha!
i know that i am a whiny pessimist

i am just counting down to these two weeks being over


an exam i hastily signed up for without
any consideration for the absolute fact that my ability
will not render me any good results
a wedding that beckons a possible family dispute
which may result in dire consequences
a wisdom teeth surgery i am a bundle of nerves about

and me being sick now, with some odd rashes popping up.

alright, i feel a little better after whining, haha!
and if i cannot stand myself i know how you must be feeling, haha!

off to wash the dishes!

Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.

considering to get a dslr, or a macbook!
i think settling for a macbook pro is really out of my budget
teachers are entitled to certain discounts
that i found out today! (:

but i still have to borrow money to await the claim
so do text me if you can lend me money! (:

haji lane later perhaps,
and errands running.

i am grateful for the short week
and i want my aches to go away.

i have weird bruises and perpetual colds
hence, amen to the existence of panadol

recently i realized new things about myself such as
how things that i never thought could hurt me
hurting me, and how perspectives can change within seconds
i become more aware of myself and situations
for that i am grateful

in a way, awareness is perhaps the only and first step
to moving from where you are now to perhaps where you can be

it seems simple, all of the above
but it takes so much to see it
so much to know it
and so much to amend it

sometimes the smallest of gestures usually mean the most.

i am afraid of sleeping,
and although they always say that
emotional hurt is worse than physical pain
there is actually not much difference

i looked at my contacts,
unsure of who to call to spill my woes
unsure of who will listen

on the carpark roof again
i looked at the life going on around me
families, church groups
and i am unsure again

life's uncertainties come in so many forms.